Saturday, November 7, 2009

Yes? Or Maybe?

Well, its been a whirlwind few months. Greenlight to try again in April, BFN in late June for a fresh cycle (two embyos transferred) and then a low and declining beta result in August with a frozen cycle (three frozen embryos transferred). So we went ahead and did another fresh in Sept/Oct and have a positive. The initial beta was higher than the first pregnancy, but the doubling rate was lower - so not really sure how to read those results. Here they are:

1st pregnancy - delivered:
Initial Beta 9dp5dt or 14dpo= 190
Follow on Beta at 16dp5dt or 21dpo = 3700
or approx 1 1/2 days doubling time

2nd - current results:
Initial Beta 9dp5dt or 14dpo = 229
Follow on beta at 16dp5dt or 21dpo = 1700
or approx 2 1/2 days doubling time

My cycle coordinator stated that the second set of numbers is as consistent as the first. She is basing this on the fact that the doubling time should be between 2 - 3 days. Looked on betabase.info and most people do fit into the 36 - 63 hour range for a singleton doubling values, but the hours factor above just appears so different to me, so not sure what to think.

Anyway, the first scan is schedule for 6 weeks 3 days (next week), so we'll see what happens.

Right now - noticing that this time is really different than last time as in no symptoms at all! Don't know if this is because I literally have no time to notice anything different about myself or if this is because there is nothing to notice????

I have had quite a bit of outside the home and inside the home stress the last few weeks, so when I say that I have had no time to focus on myself - I really mean it. My work schedule is so crazy that the usual is a 50 - 60 hour work week. I truly am looking back at the last few months (really the last few years) and now am beginning to wonder if I am a crisis person. You know, one of those people that isn't happy unless there is some sort of crisis or drama going on? For example:

The last 5 years = 9 IVF transfers (5 fresh and 4 frozen); one pregnancy; becoming a foster mom, becoming a mom, working through maternity leave due to work requirements, steadily working 50 - 60 hour weeks for the last couple years, 3 additional IVF transfers (2 fresh and 1 frozen), continuing to work 50 - 60 hour weeks.......WTF.

The previous 6 years = get engaged, cross country move, change jobs, commuting miles of over 150/day rt, local move to reduce commuting miles, build house, get married, husband diagnosed with cancer (2 surgeries, 3 hospital admissions, and chemo following), move again, change job, another cross country move, another local move, build house, another local move

You get the idea.

So - I am one of those people. Not sure how not to be in crisis mode at this point. But I am really willing to try :). For the sake of staying positive, I will refer to this type of personality as determined, hard-working, and persevering. Hey, whatever gets me through the day!

I think that anyone willing to go through any type of infertility treatment must also be this type of personality, because we all know that it is anything but easy. $, Tests, shots, waiting, waiting....everyone knows the drill.

All for now.........

16 comments:

Sue said...

I don't know how you do it, but I'm impressed. Good luck with the scan - I'm hoping for good news. Thanks for the update!

Leah said...

Congratulations on your numbers. So thrilled for you! I'm going to agree that you demonstrate resiliency and determination, not a voracious appetite for crisis. :-) Can't wait to hear results of the scan.

By the way, I don't know if you're up for making the long trek to MD again, but we're having our annual TOOTPU cookie exchange in December. We would all love to see you again. We definitely have not forgotten you as you made such a wonderful impression. We've been pulling for you!

chezperky said...

I agree with Leah - on the resiliency vs. appetite for crisis, and on hoping to see you at the cookie exchange.

Congratulations on this pregnancy. My betas for my current pregnancy were VERY different from either of my two previous pregnancies (admittedly, one of those previous pregnancies was with triplets... but my numbers were actually higher this time than with the triplets, but there's only ONE in there). I think I'd take the differences with a grain of salt.

Meghan said...

Wow! Congrats!! Good luck at your scan

Kami said...

Congrats on the pregnancy. I hope it continues to go well.

I don't know how you work that much. I understand you are saying you would want to find a more simplified life - perhaps asking yourself, "Twenty years from now will I be glad I put my energy into this?"

GL at the scan!

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