Friday, October 26, 2007

Well, the second OB appt was yesterday. We visited with the NP instead of the OB. We won't see the OB until our Dec appt. I am comfortable with the NP so this is okay. This office is so great. I love it there. So glad that I switched.

I am definitely not used to not having ultrasounds all of the time. Yesterday was our first experience with the doppler instead of the ultrasound. Liking the doppler, very cool; however, not as cool as the good ol' US. So, we'll have to wait until 20 weeks for the next look. I am so hoping that the 20 week scan turns out with everything okay. I am still a mess with worry. I know that worrying the way that I am is not healthy and that putting off telling everyone is not rational, but I can't seem to let it go.

In all fairness to myself, this is nothing new. I worry about everything. I have been this way ever since I was little - will I get the question right in class? Does so and so like me? Yada Yada. That being said, I do prioritize my worrying. Right now, this pregnancy is occupying my full worry attention. The 1st trimester screening blood test came back with a low PAPP-A. This could indicate placental problems so from what the NP said it sounds like they have moved me to high risk for the 3rd trimester. Does anyone know anything about this? Info would be appreciated. The genetic counselor said that there could be some correlation but no one is quite sure. So, we will be getting US from 24 weeks on to make sure that the placenta is able to support the baby properly.

TM has laid down the law, so we will be telling the remainder of the family this weekend, but I negotiated to tell friends, work at a later date. TBD.

11 comments: said...

I waited until I was fully three months along before breaking the news.

Then I almost didn't want to tell because I'd made it that far without saying anything that then it was like a present / treasure to hold onto. :D

Foreverhopeful said...

Glad to hear everything is going great. I think your fear is normal after all you've been through to get to this point. Its sad that we work so hard to get pregnant and when we finally get there.. we can't enjoy it because fear takes a hold of us. You sound like so many other bloggers who went through hell to finally get there.

stacyb said...

don't know anything about placenta problems...but fear i know.

fear it seems normal in the land of ivf,DE, etc... hopefully as you get more comfortable in your pregnancy (hey, isn't that great, you're in your pregnancy?) you'll feel less fear. for us the fear is just starting to go 23 weeks...but it did abate slowly...still i have to say at every doc visit a part of me holds my breathe.

exciting that you're telling the rest of your family this weekend.

Lea Bee said...

glad you heard the hb :) and that your appt went relatively well.

ultimatejourney said...

I'm sorry it's been such a scary ride for you. I think you'll have happy news at your 20w u/s.

I'm a worrier too, and I definitely don't need test results supporting my concern. We haven't met with a genetic counselor -- it was my OB who told me that my HCG levels could have a correlation with early placental aging.

I'm really hoping for smooth sailing for us both.

In and Out of Luck said...

I'm a worrier too - with my first I remember I told my boss when I was 11 weeks and 6 days, and I was wracked with anxiety that I was "jumping the gun." I was sure that I would be promptly punished for my overconfidence. It sucks, what a persecution complex this stuff gives you. I'm glad your pregnancy (your pregnancy!) is progressing well.

Karen said...

the absolute only advantage I had in having a triplet pregnancy was that I had 33 ultrasounds in my 33 week pregnancy. But it came at the expense of placenta issues, contractions, preterm labor, bed rest, and three premature infants, so I'm not sure the tradeoff was completely worth it. On the other hand, I'm still not sorry I had so many ultrasounds!

Drowned Girl said...

nO us for me from 12w-23w either. But I'm glad to be deemed low risk atm.

I LOVE the doppler anyway, hearing a heartbeat is such a sweet sound.

Um: hearing two heartbeats (still in denial here, as you can see)

Kristen said...

If we happen to get pregnant again, we will not be telling friends until 12 weeks. I will share with my supervisor because she was a fellow infertile but that is only because if something happens, I don't want to push to back to work and put on a facade as I did with the first two losses. Our families know our struggle so we will probably tell them before 3 months but I will want to make sure my betas are doubling appropriately.

I hate that we can be naive and just share in the joy. Infertility is such a drag.

I hope there are no placental issues and that sharing the news goes well :)

Leah said...

Just wanted to make sure you hadn't skipped town or something... You've been SO quiet. Please let us know how things are going.

I know it's a long trek, but hopefully we'll all get to see you in a couple of weeks at the cookie exchange.

Leah said...

Hello? [insert sound of crickets here] Hoping that you, DH, J and the baby all had a good Thanksgiving and are doing well.