Today has been a whirlwind! It started this morning at 3:30am. I couldn't sleep thinking about today's test results - not wanting to drive to the clinic, try to make it through the blood draw without crying, make it through the day at work without losing it - so I decided that knowing before the BFN phone call was better than hoping all day.
So at 3:30am I got up and took a HPT. I didn't put my contacts in, so I really couldn't see what I was doing. It took me a minute to figure out that I was looking at the back of the HPT - I panicked for a minute thinking that I had a bum model with no screen. Superstar that I am, I finally figured out to turn the HPT around and look at the screen. It was positive! I could make out the second line clear as day (even without my contacts). I was so excited that I ran in and woke up TM.
He was completely startled (he is a super deep sleeper). I believe that the quote was "What the hell?" I shoved the HPT in his face and said "It's positive!" He squinted at it through sleepy eyes and said, "I thought that you weren't supposed to take the HPT, that you might not get an accurate result" I replied that I thought that it should work. We then tried to go back to sleep - riiighht. Like that was going to happen. About an hour and a half later, I tested again (just to make sure that I didn't get a false positive the first time). Positive again! At this point sleep was pointless. I got up and took a shower and drove to the clinic and was there over an hour early (I am never early for anything!).
So, blood was drawn and the wait commenced. I was not yet convinced that the HPT's worked (thanks to the doubt provided by TM earlier). I got the call at 11:30, thankfully the wait was not long. Here's the big news:
1st Beta - 190 at 9 days past 5 day transfer.
The nurse said that the number is really great. My follow up beta is scheduled for next Tuesday. That seems like a long time to me........
Right now, I don't think that all of this has sunk in. I was so prepared for another BFN that a BFP didn't even cross my mind.